I feel like I'm choking

I feel like I'm slowly drifting to the bottom of a pool

The deep end...

and no matter how much I try to fight,

and sometimes I do, and I win for a couple of seconds

I'm actually drowning.

How do I find my way to the surface?

I just want to be happy.

I just want to be having fun.

Please, why am I so miserable?

I'm so confused about what I'm supposed to be doing.

Letting her go...

Or fighting to make it work.

Love isn't work.

Love is beautiful.

I'm a hopeless romantic, and I'm allowing myself to be miserable.

fuck.